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Some of the major disorders discussed and explained.
BPD Criteria Explained
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BPD Criteria 5 - The Criteria Explained a Little More Clearly
(5). recurrent suicidal behavior, gestures, or threats, or self-mutilating behavior.
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One of my main problems in life is when I get depressed or feeling like everyone doesn't give a good god damn, I get sucidal.
All I want to do is end the misery. I can see no way out besides the long sleep ahead of me and how peceful it will be. No strife, no pain.. just peace.
I have tried to do it more times than I can count. Each time landing me in the hospital under observation, I usually over-dose. It's the easiest for me. Then I get a charcoal milkshake.. nasty..
I let everyone know when I get so bad. I scare myself. I tell them I am suicidal.. and all I ever get from them is "think of the one's who are left behind." shit man.. its not them I am worried about at this point.. its me. I need encouraging words from them to make me feel loved and cared for, or at the very least wanted around, because I have something to offer.. not because they'll miss me. I don't care they will miss me.. my thoughts are - they'll get over it. At the time you are sucidal you are very centered on your problems and could give a shit about anyone else.
I don't think I tell them needlessly or anything. I am actually suicidal at the time. I don't make false gestures, I will over-dose. I will kill me.
Some people call this a cry for help, repeated sucidal behaviour. I think so.. I want someone to pay attention to me in my time of need. It's a thought that is on my mind constantly.. and it pops out from time to time..
Some people self-injure but cutting or burning with cigarettes etc. I am lucky I don't mutilate my body. Often. To release my pain to change my mind to stop thinking.. I have no release.. so I try to off myself. Sometimes I think I will sart cutting but.. its not my style.. too chicken I guess. I scratch sometimes.
This criteria is one of the most important in making a BPD diagnosis..
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