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My Pot Medication Diary
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Marijuana Study
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This study was initiated by me because I am refusing heavy psychiatric meds. I want to see if pot can help me in a better way than the popular prescribed medications. The medications I have been offered to help me cope with my symptoms are anti-depressants. I'm not interested in them because they leave me feeling like I'm living in a fog and they have permanent side-effects e.g the zaps.
Type: street marijuana - type unknown
Potency: really good!
Quantity: 1/4 oz/week
Study period: January 11, 2008 - February 10, 2008
Study purpose: to discover if pot can be used in lieu of man-made chemicals such as anti-depressants and benzodiazepines for this patient.
Control: 55 yr. old woman, depressed, suicidal, isolated. Receiving weekly councelling sessions using the DBT method. She is depressed to the point of being suicidal. She is isolated and has feelings of emptiness. She has trouble accomplishing tasks e.g. finding housework and personal care difficult. She has obsessive self-abusive thoughts about perceived inadequacies and projects her thoughts on others. She is moody, grouchy and withdrawn all the time. She has indicated life has no attraction for her.
Drug free therapies to try:
1). Have a shower
2). Work on computer
3). Watch TV
4). Clean house (although if my mind is filled with thoughts I am incapable of doing this)
5). Go for a drive (Only if my mind lets me out of the house)
6). Do a craft.
7). Go for a walk and make a list of 10 things you see that don't belong.
8). Think of a new identity :)
Current Medications:
1). Blood pressure (indicated as bp #doses):
This group of drugs will be measured by 1/2 doses - 1/2 dose in the a.m and 1/2 dose in the p.m
- atenolol 25 mg - BID
- coversyl - a.m
- apsrin 8.1 mg - a.m
2). Psychiatric (indicated as psych #doses):
This group of drugs will be measured in full doses each time it is used
- nozinan 5 mg - ad lib (up to 30 mgs/day) 15 mg = 1 dose
3). Alternative (indicated as pot #doses):
This group of drugs will be measured in full doses each time it is used
- marijuana 1 lungful - ad lib (up to 1 gm/day) = 1 pipe = 1 dose
Pot Administration:
As a method of delivering certain medicinal compounds, smoking marijuana has some real advantages: The effect is almost instantaneous, allowing the patient to fine-tune his or her dose to get the needed relief without intoxication.
- Doseage: 1 dose = 1 pipe
Mood: depressed, suicidal, isolated, unmotivated, obsessive self-abusive thoughts
Purpose for psychiatric medications: To relieve stress when pot cannot be used e.g. at doctors appointments etc.
Purpose for alternative medications: To improve mood, relieve suicidal ideations and minimize obsessive self-abusive thoughts.
Course of Action: Stay on a maintenance dose of up to 1 gm/day for 30 days.
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Week 1
Friday, January 11, 2008
Day's comments:
Busy day. Had meeting with lawyer, then with psychologist, drove out into country to buy smokes, felt very tense rest of the day. Spent afternoon and evening with obsessive thoughts and a full blown case of revenge of the red! (obsessive thoughts blaming me for what-ever happened I percieved as me doing, saying or being bad in any way, shape or form) and took small doses for "maintenace".
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Time and dose of each medication taken
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9:00 a.m
3:45 p.m
4:30 p.m
5:12 p.m
7:30 p.m
8:00 p.m
9:30 p.m
12:30 a.m
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bp 1/2, psych 1
pot 1
pot 1
pot 1
pot 1
bp 1/2, psych 1
pot 2
pot 2
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Total # doses:
Total # doses:
Total # doses:
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bp 1
psych 2
pot 8
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Saturday, January 12, 2008
Day's comments:
Depressed today. Son and family came over with an hrs. notice and put together my new table and chairs while I played with kids. I had feelings of inadequacy about my task, guilt about them helping me. Spent the rrest of the day with revenge of the red!
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Time and dose of each medication taken
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8:36 a.m
3:08 p.m
6:31 p.m
7:53 p.m
11:00 p.m
12:45 a.m
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bp 1/2
pot 1
pot 1
pot 2
bp 1/2, psych 1
pot 1
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Total # doses:
Total # doses:
Total # doses:
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bp 1
psych 1
pot 5
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Sunday, January 13, 2008
Day's comments:
Lazy day, slept in. I felt unmotivated today. Feeling guilty about the dog, she needs a walk. Feelings of depression but not too bad.
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Time and dose of each medication taken
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10:45 a.m
4:47 p.m
11:54 p.m
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bp 1/2
pot 2
pot 2, bp 1/2, psych 1
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Total # doses:
Total # doses:
Total # doses:
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bp 1
psych 1
pot 4
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Monday, January 14, 2008
Day's comments:
Didn't sleep last night. I just laid there til I was stiff and sore. I had a meeting for a volunteer position (2 hr/wk). I felt like calling it off but managed to keep the appoinment. I start Wed at 1. ta-da! I slept on and off the rest of the day.
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Time and dose of each medication taken
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10:45 a.m
3:07 p.m
7:30 p.m
10:00 p.m
11:56 p.m
2:45 a.m
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bp 1/2, psych 1
pot 1
pot 2
bp 1/2, psych 1
pot 1
pot 2
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Total # doses:
Total # doses:
Total # doses:
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bp 1
psych 2
pot 6
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Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Day's comments:
Today started like a good day. Joe came over and we had 4 beer over bad news.
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Time and dose of each medication taken
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9:36 a.m
1:00 p.m
3:30 p.m
4:30 p.m
7:30 p.m
10:45 a.m
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bp 1/2
pot 1
pot 1
pot 1
pot 1
bp 1/2
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Total # doses:
Total # doses:
Total # doses:
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bp 1
psych 0
pot 4
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Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Day's comments:
Today I did 2 hours volunteer work. It is a positive day.
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Time and dose of each medication taken
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8:15 a.m
11:25 a.m
4:20 p.m
6:00 p.m
8:40 p.m
12:45 p.m
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bp 1/2
psych 1
pot 2
pot 1
bp 1/2
pot 2
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Total # doses:
Total # doses:
Total # doses:
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bp 1
psych 1
pot 5
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Thursday, January 17, 2008
Day's comments:
Couldn't leave the house today, this caused me a lot of stress worrying about it.
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Time and dose of each medication taken
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9:36 a.m
3:38 p.m
6:20 p.m
8:45 p.m
11:45 p.m
1:06 a.m
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bp 1/2
pot 2
pot 1
pot 1
bp 1/2
psych 1, pot 2
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Total # doses:
Total # doses:
Total # doses:
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bp 1
psych 1
pot 6
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Week 2
Friday, January 18, 2008
Day's comments:
I see David today.. I can speak about my success :). I had a good meeting. My mood is lifting. I feel much better today, on a more consistant basis, than I have in a while.
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Time and dose of each medication taken
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3:38 p.m
6:30 p.m
8:30 p.m
10:48 p.m
1:26 a.m
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pot 1
pot 2
bp 1/2
pot 2
pot 2
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Total # doses:
Total # doses:
Total # doses:
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bp 1/2
psych 0
pot 7
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Saturday, January 19, 2008
Day's comments:
Today I am mixed up. I feel depressed but don't know why. maybe I'm lonely. I have tried to go out, I cannot. I feel suicidal.
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Time and dose of each medication taken
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10:00 a.m
2:30 p.m
4:20 p.m
7:30
11:00 p.m
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bp 1/2
pot 2
pot 2
pot 2
pot 2
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Total # doses:
Total # doses:
Total # doses:
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bp 1/2
psych 0
pot 8
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Sunday, January 20, 2008
Day's comments:
No comments. I felt shitty all day. Spent a lot of time in bed
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Time and dose of each medication taken
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10:48 a.m
4:30 p.m
8:45 p.m
11:45
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bp 1/2
pot 2
pot 1, bp 1/2
pot 1, psych 1
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Total # doses:
Total # doses:
Total # doses:
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bp 1
psych 1
pot 4
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Monday, January 21, 2008
Day's comments:
Feel low today, but managed to get out for a couple hours and visited family.
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Time and dose of each medication taken
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10:00 a.m
4:20 p.m
6:20 p.m
8:45 p.m
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bp 1/2
pot 2
pot 2
pot 2, bp 1/2
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Total # doses: 1
Total # doses: 0
Total # doses: 6
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bp
psych
pot
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Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Day's comments:
Lay low all day. Phone wasn't working furnace is on the fritz. Problems, problems..
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Time and dose of each medication taken
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10:15 a.m
4:20 p.m
8:30 p.m
11:45
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bp 1/2
pot 2
pot 2
pot 2, bp 1/2
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Total # doses:
Total # doses:
Total # doses:
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bp 1
psych 0
pot 6
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Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Day's comments:
Didn't do volunteer work because furnace guy had to come, I feel like a real big loser. Furnace is dead, I need 3112.20 to get a new one. Bank won't give me a loan. Damn, damn, damn. Can't stop thinking of suicide
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Time and dose of each medication taken
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2:15 a.m
4:20 p.m
6:00 p.m
8:30 p.m
12:45 a.m
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bp 1/2
pot 1
pot 1
pot 1
pot 2, psych 1
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Total # doses:
Total # doses:
Total # doses:
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bp 1/2
psych 1
pot 5
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Thursday, January 24, 2008
Day's comments:
Met with my therapist. good meeting came away with something to think about. Tired all day
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Time and dose of each medication taken
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10:15 a.m
3:20 p.m
8:30 p.m
11:45
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bp 1/2
pot 2
pot 2
pot 2, psych 1
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Total # doses:
Total # doses:
Total # doses:
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bp 1/2
psych 1
pot 6
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