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My Pot Medication Diary | 
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Week 3 Friday, January 25, 2008 Day's comments: Furnace people were here so early 8:30 a.m Gawd. I slept all day. Feeling depressed. Wondering why I should exist
Saturday, January 26, 2008 Day's comments:
Well, I stopped documenting my doses here. I got really "sick" and just couldn't put myself through this mundane task anymore. It is Februrary 23, as I write this about a month has passed. Nothing has changed in the way my dosing has been so I want to talk about how I feel now. The pot is working as an anti-anxiety and stress relief thing. It is keeping me out of deep drepression though I can say I do feel down at times, but a puff or too brings me 'round. The thing I am being bothered by the most is my socialphobia symptoms or my avoidant personality disorder symptoms. I feel I cannot leave my house. This is causing me a lot of problems. I find if I take just one or two puffs, not enough to be intoxicated but enough to ease the stress level I can get to the store or whatever it is I have to do out there. I would need a lot more than a puff to stay in the park for instance. I have a dilemma now. My psychiatrist has asked me not to smoke a toke the day before or the day of an interview. He is worried my thoughts will be clouded by drugs I guess. I suppose I can do it. I don't want to. It will be horrible. I don't think it was a resonable request to ask me to stop my medication without something to back it up. I guess he figures I can get by on nozinan. I can't. I have cut the nozinan back enough now that a small dose really makes me very tired. If I take nozinan for two days I will sleep the whole time and probably sleep right through the appointment. I can agree to not smoke before my interview with him. I wouldn't anyways. But the day before is unreasonable in my books. I better talk to him about this problem. I am going to be stressed out so bad by the time my meeting with him occurs I probably will be quite ill. He is going to take this as a sign that my experiment with pot did not work. Far from it. My experiment did work and still is. Psych meds are long lasting. So if you miss a dose it isn't too alarming, there will be enough of the drug stored in your system for such and event. Pot is not long lasting and the effects wear off after a couple of hours. You need to repeat every so often when needed. Being "high". Hmmmmm... what is "high". To me "high" is intoxicated. To get high I need a whole joint. Something I haven't done in years. I only take a puff or two, not more, when I am medicating. I have done this for so long now that "high" is sometimes uncomfortable. I like to be able to function. When I am high I cannot do it as well. On a lower dose I could do anything I normally do. I know you are waiting for me to talk about driving.... well listen here. I do drive. But not after smoking. Like any drug on the market there is a little message that reads... do not operate machinery or heavy equipment until you know how the drug will affect you. After the intial buzz wear's off i can drive as well as I can write my own name. My ability is not impaired at all. Like too many beer you can have too much pot to be able to drive. But unlike ber, pot wears off quickly and you can drive in an hour or so. Memory. Well there is a problem with that. I have to admit this one. I forget things while I am high. I think it is more of not being able to told a complete thought for a while. lol and as soon as the thought forms it is gone again. Funny most of the time. Don't try and do anything important under the influence it won't work the first time. LOL So I wrap up this experiemnt by saying what I have said all along. Pot helps me. I prefer it to psych meds. I use it responsibly and i am hurting no one by using it. Not even me. I am helping me. | |||||||||||||||||